1. |
Dawn Of A Dream
03:49
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2. |
The Seed
04:04
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Back in my age of innocence
No one to set me straight
I just wanted an audience
To watch and congratulate
Cries of pain, shouts of joy
Dismissed them all the same
It was then I learned the ploy
To get what I need in this game
I never really had it rough
Things were given to me
But seems I wasn’t good enough
To live in reality
Though I tried so hard to please
For a hollow sense of self
It was always out of reach
Too high up on the shelf
Then I turned to the world
For emotional release
Where I will finally be heard
And my thoughts will be unleashed
Unapologetically
I’ll get what I deserve
(what I deserve)
I will make them listen to me
By striking every nerve
I just need to make them live
In my dream with me
This is how
It’s gotta be
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3. |
A Trip Into Madness
04:33
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Sirens and city lights
Streaming in through my stuck window
Just some small-time open mic
But I’m running about a half pint low
I’ll dip into what I’ve saved up
Yeah, I’ll still have just enough
For a couple months
Oh, I’ll be golden once
I get in with the right ones
Older long-haired man hunched at the bar
Nursing his beer
Knows I’m nervous
Might have gone too far
Say’s “This will help you think clear”
As my name is called I feel it
Kicking so violently in
Stumble through some worn out tunes
I learned when I was beginning
See myself outside
And realize I’m not alone
It’s that same man
Doing what he can
To help me stay afloat
“I couldn’t help but notice that you
Seem pretty down
I used to sing my songs on this stage, too
Back when I was new in town”
“So try to have a good time, son”
“Youth is wasted on the young”
Won’t do much to quell the fear
To say it’s all downhill from here
But now I know just what I need
Just why this means so much to me
To fight the slow fade into obscurity
It might seem tragic
To some, perhaps a little cliche
To do as my idols have done
To try and live on in this way
But it would be no life at all for me
I’m not afraid to die
So long as it’s a blaze of glory
And not a long, painful goodbye
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4. |
Going Places
04:56
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Bested and beat down
Back out on the street again
Staring up the barrel of
Another couple miles of cold dead-ends
I lay me down to sleep in the back of my car
Kicking myself for not thinking this far ahead
Today was never supposed to come
Not like this
Pulled out of my dreaming
Another junkie screaming in the night
Oh just ‘cause you can’t see ‘em
It doesn’t mean the demons ain’t nearby
I’m looking down
At my reflection in rain
Pooled up in a gutter
That refuses to drain
I’m breaking down with every stare
Just before they
Quickly look away
Cowering away from every morning
I sniff out a place to mark my territory
And dig through the headlines for a new backstory
And wait for someone to make my mind up for me
To prove I stand out in this sea of faces
Reassure me my potential isn’t wasted
It’s just a detour on my way to greatness
And tell me “Kid, you’re going places”
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5. |
Disappearing Act
06:09
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Five strings left
Scrounging for cigarettes
Play to all the
Motion-blurred silhouettes
They got places to be
But not me
So I find a melody
And hum along with the footsteps on the street
Off to the corner store
Gonna see my friend
First thing at 6 a.m.
Settle my debt
Buy more gin
He knew he’d see me again
A few bucks
But nobody gives a fuck
Can’t look me in my eyes
As they wish me luck
Well, is it them or is it me?
‘Cause I think I oughta be
On a stage or the radio
I may be wrong, though
I don’t know
Anymore
With every day I’m wasted here
Gradually disappearing
Any chance I’ve got
Dwindling to naught
Can’t help my thinking out loud
(I begin to cry)
Guess I’m not too proud…
Am I one of them now?
(To cast aside)
Haunting the periphery
But not yet
There’s too much left unsaid
But I’ll need your help
I cannot do this myself
I wanna be loved
So fucking much
That someone takes my life
(Somebody, take my life)
I wanna know what that’s like
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6. |
Shaking Hands
06:21
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Hit a bit of luck
About to call it a night
Last song’s wrapping up
And someone’s listening at my side
She claps and then she tells me
That the band she booked tonight’s
Nowhere to be found
Manages a dive bar
Not too far from this pier
The gig don’t pay too much
But if I’m up for tips and beer
I’d be doing her a favor
And she’s sure that they, like her
Will love my sound
Not much sense in saying “no”
To somewhere to be
And a reason to go
This may not be my big break
Right now, it might as well be
What a difference it makes
To hear somebody yelling
“Play us another one”
Forget how long it’s been
But I
I feel alive again
Finished my first set
Put down my guitar
Shaking off the cold sweat
I head off for the bar
I can’t afford to blow it
I just need one to dull the edge
I look around the room
This old saloon feels more like home
Than anywhere I’ve laid my head
Since I’ve been on my own
Someone buys a round
And I can’t turn down
This flattering pledge
Once again I take the stage
To continue my masquerade
This may not be my big break
Right now, it might as well be
What a difference it makes
To hear somebody yelling
“Play us another one”
Forget how long it’s been
But I
I feel alive again
Pouring my heart out
‘Cause they may be in this crowd
The one who will make it all
Worth it somehow
It’s the end of the night
And I’ve sung my peace and pain
The crowd filters out
And a lone stranger remains
He’s walking my way
Must have something to say
“That was one hell of a show
How far would you like to go?”
I take his card with shaking hands
He smiles with excitement
“Ya know, I’ve signed a lot of bands
You’re up there with the brightest”
Despite my stomach turning
I just couldn’t be
Any happier
It’s happening for me
No more singing on the street
To folks who just ignore me
No more trying to compete
With the city roaring
For every day that I spent
Feeling two feet tall
I’m going places
After all
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7. |
Anxious Waltz
05:35
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This is just where I wanted to be
Yet I sit here feeling uneasy
Many long months on the road have paid off
When will the other shoe drop?
Quit telling me everything I wanna hear
Is it true I’ve got nothing to fear?
I craved the attention and that’s what I get
What did I expect?
Maybe I should learn to be more content
Fame was not something I’d thought I’d resent
People apparently love me to death
At least one crazed fan that I’ve met
“Man, you’re so talented, how could we lose?”
They say as I get the sense I’m being used
The public will always believe what it’s told
Now it through me that the lies will be sold
Starting to see
What they’ve made me
Revenue stream
A commodity
“Take a seat, kid, everything will be fine
No one else matters, it’s just you and I
We can still go all the way to the top
Step out of line, you’ll be dropped”
Was it the dream to molded like clay
Bleeding my soul so that they can get paid
If I keep ‘em coming, they’ll keep me supplied
Knowing full-well I may not survive
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8. |
Last Stop
06:01
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I can’t believe just how naive I’ve been
They set the trap and then I fell right in
A trail of petals laid out down the garden path
I chased the sunset into midnight
And I can’t find my way back
In the mind of a child, the dream
Played out nothing like this
Even with all the eyes upon me
It feels so meaningless
My sense of self is all but stripped away
I never really had one anyway
They’ve dressed my demons in the latest trends
To inject the poison straight into the next
Generations
Thought I was pulling them in
To my warped reality
Thought I was one step ahead of the game
But the game was playing me
Now I think back to when I had nothing
But a broken down car and hope
To keep me going
Well, I felt invisible then as I do today
At least no one cared to exploit me this way
And now I’ve got even less
Of a reason to go on
I fell prey
To the allure of
Burning out so young
I gambled with my potential
For a legacy
when I’m gone
No longer will I be a tool for this machine
Of soul destruction and its abject misery
Now that I’ve seen it plainly
I cannot contravene
I’m breaking out
From the wicked world
That I’ve been worshipping
I’m breaking out
I’m breaking out
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9. |
Encore
05:09
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Made my escape
Wound up down in a nowhere town
I wait
For it all to find me here
For the calls of pleading from my puppeteers
“The people need you”
Why’d you leave?
You have so much you stand to lose”
I throw my phone out of the window
Don’t wanna see myself on the news
Livin’ in cheap hotels and bars
He must’ve been
Watching me for weeks from afar
‘Cause he knew what I was out to score
I didn’t sense the danger
As I passed through the basement door
“Don’t you know I need you
Tell me it ain’t true
You just can’t be giving up
See, I’m more than just a fan
You’re all I’ve got, man
The only one who gets me”
That was the last thing I heard
Before my vision started to blur
And spiraled into the depths of timelessness
When I awoke, I was chained up to the wall
I could see nothing at all
Dawn broke and crept in through a crack
Of a tiny window painted black
Not a chance I’d loosen this steel bar
Only thing I could reach was a guitar
Pen and notebook left out on the floor
That’s when I heard the creak of a door
I asked him “What do you want from me?”
He laughed “Ain’t it obvious?
You know what I need
It was clear by the songs you sang
You weren’t happy out there
You wanted somewhere to hide away”
You never have to
Go anywhere, you’ve
Got everything here you require
You’re gonna write it
Your next big hit
I’ll be here to keep you inspired”
I tried to fight it at first
That only made things worse
And I don’t know what he’ll do
When this album is through
Perhaps I’ll die down here
Maybe today, maybe 40 years…
But, at least I’ve told my story
In hopes it will reach your ears
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